Maybe you’ve realized
that everyone wears a mask
and we’re dancing on a ball of life drama
altogether, not knowing about each other
and feel the safety of the mask
the invisible yet strong mask named persona
We’re unaware about each other
for we could not see beyond the mask
although it’s invisible physically
for it’s a huge wall in the nature of soul
yet
we’re still grateful
and thankful for it
as we feel safe
and we don’t have to be burdened
by something beyond the mask
But for anyone who are keen enough
to sought what’s beyond the mask
then they’ll encounter things
that they’ve never expect before
some grow fond of it
some are fascinated
some are amazed
some are still grateful for it
but some are scared and regretful
while others scarred the face indifferently
as you might know
I, too, wear a mask
an apathetic mask of lies and hate
a mask which I’ve shown you that day
a mask which you could never imagined
but could only be seen in reality
when I was off guard just like at that time
yes, I was off guard
because like a few
I wear two masks at once
one mask I used everyday to be seen
and one apathetic mask I used everyday
in case that I was off guard
for I, too, like many others
dislike insecurity
and like my own privacy
But as you can see
my masks were cracked
maybe you could not see the greed in my eyes when I saw you
for I could not lust on you
but I believe if you pay enough attention
then you could see my mouth clearly
a mouth muttering about God and you
about things you’ve never dreamed of
about me, myself, and I
about my feelings for you
an everlasting feeling which I could not said yet
I would like to take my masks off of my face
but I fear about what your reaction would be
if you see me without my masks
without my daily mask and my apathetic mask
I’m afraid that if I take off my masks
then you’ll fear me
you’ll despise me
you’ll kill me and torture me mentally
as you did nowadays
when I know that you’re not mine
yet I think of you
yet I think of taking my masks off
yet I dreamed of you
for I love you
more and more in every passing days
and I want to be with you
more and more in every passing days
but I fear you
if I ever take off my masks
and I hope
it’s not getting more and more in every passing days
but lesser and lesser in every passing days
because this is one of my final steps
that is to take off my masks before your eyes
to prove that you could have anything from me
aside from my faith
to prove that I’ll take off my masks in front of you
because I believe in you
and I hope you could take off your mask
at least just for a while
at least just for that time
and reveal your feelings for me
to set a start on our path
or put and end for my misery
-Black and White-
