Well, thank you for your kindness
although I did not deserve it
maybe you did not realize it
but it feels a lot for me
for I now have take a step forward
and the tile are falling apart behind me
so I could not step backward
or repeat the days behind me
I once again thank you for your kindness
for your innocence and spirit
as I could be drawn closer with you
a little
only a little?
yes
maybe it’s little
or maybe it’s tiny
but it’s not about the size
it’s about the step
as long as there is a step
no matter the size
you’ll reach your goal
no matter the length
as long as you keep stepping
you’ll overcome it
for now, I say it for myself
to make a smile on my apathetic face
to color the paleness of a face of a zombie
to bring wramth in the cold heart
to make hot blood flows once more in the dead veins
to move my numb tendons
to make a step
Because all I could think for now
is how I could make a step
for I would suffer if I hurt you when I stepped
for maybe I could drag you around when I stepped
for maybe I could step on your personal things
for maybe I could hurt you on the slightest movement
So, please
I want to make a step
and I want to take a step at a time
not alone
but be with you
but don’t hesitate when I dragged you around
or when I hurt you
or when I step on your things harder than I should step
just tell me
I will and am opened to you
If you want to expose the dark liquid that enveloped my heart
then just ask
and I would rip my chest in front of you
and take any pain in your eyes
and pour it on my blackened heart
which beats slowly and insignificantly
just like my step pace
which is slow and insignificant
Until the time come
I want you to be with me
please
only God could forbid me from being with you
therefore
until He forbid me
I would take a step at a time
slowly
insignificantly
to you
for you are one of my longest personal goal
and I could not give up
but I could make a short step
short, slowly, insignificant,
but it will deliver me to you
because it’s not just a short, slowly, insignificant, thing
but it’s a step
-Black and White-
